March 8, 2014
For this evening, a lovely poem by Louise Bogan... :)
The Changed Woman
The light flower leaves its little core
Begun upon the waiting bough.
Again she bears what she once bore
And what she knew she re-learns now.
The cracked glass fuses at a touch,
The wound heals over, and is set
In the whole flesh, and is not much
Quite to remember or forget.
Rocket and tree, and dome and bubble
Again behind her freshened eyes
Are treacherous. She need not trouble.
Her lids will know them when she dies.
And while she lives, the unwise, heady
Dream, ever denied and driven,
Will one day find her bosom ready,
That never thought to be forgiven.
And some beautiful music if you feel so inclined. :)
It won't be long now! Goodnight, all! Have a lovely Sunday...
Posted by Mary at 3/08/2014
March 5, 2014
Today, there's a soft, steady rain. We need rain. But not nearly as much as California needs it. I'm sending soggy thoughts down that way. This is the kind of rain i love. The sound of it on our roof. The kitties are all comfy, warm, napping. I have a good book, and a little dark chocolate.
It's the small stuff that makes me smile sometimes. I ate lunch by myself, (which i love to do,) and i overheard a man at the next table order his gorgonzola bacon burger well done. I thought, oh oh.. you might get hockey puck. lol. But then i suppose he could also get e-coli, (a thought which doesn't make me smile at all.) So maybe he got it right. I've had that awful sickness. Just once. Awful doesn't cover it.
So i made an appointment for my annual physical. It's March 18th. Ick. But it must be done, so i'll smile about it. Through gritted teeth. And yes, the colonoscopy will come up. Today at the Market, i bought some prunes. 'High end', organic ones. :) So maybe if i tell her i promise to eat three a day for the rest of my days, she'll agree i don't need one of those tests? I mean they are organic prunes, after all! lol That must make a difference! No?
We have daffodils and periwinkle! Maybe tomorrow i'll take some pics. Raining too hard today. They have their heads bowed and are soaking in the moisture. Still gorgeous. Yellow optimistic smiles!
Well, it for now. Back to my book and chocolate.
Not this year's blooms, but last year's. Some from our yard. Hopefully soon, some pics of 'present day' daffodils. lol. Peace to all...
Posted by Mary at 3/05/2014
March 1, 2014
"All of a sudden, we've lost a lot of control. We can't turn off our internet. We can't turn off our smartphones. We can't turn off our computers. You used to ask a smart person a question. Now, who do you ask? It starts with g-o, and it's not God..." --- Steve Wozniak
Yes, i'm greatly enjoying much less time in cyberspace. On my cell phone and on my laptop. And i've cut out a lot of my TV viewing, but it's not completely gone. :) I'm beginning to feel quite rested and refreshed. It's fun. More mindfulness can't hurt. Still coming on, but i'm setting a timer that ticks. lol. It probably isn't for everyone, but it works for me. No more information overload and exhaustion. I highly recommend this feeling. It's awesome!
Well, my time's just about up. Have a lovely Sunday, and i'll be back sooner next time, but not sure when. No schedule. Spontaneity is where it's at! Goodnight, almost. But first:
Yellow = optimism and energy. Night! :)
Posted by Mary at 3/01/2014
February 8, 2014
"As anyone who has ever been around a cat for any length of time well knows, cats have enormous patience with the limitations of humankind." --- Cleveland Amory, The Cat Who Came for Christmas
This was so true of our Otis Kitty. Husband and i said goodbye to him on Thursday. It was time, and we did the right thing for him. He suffered from kidney failure, and earlier in the week, had lost interest in eating at all. We loved him heart and soul, and he loved us and gave us so much joy over the seventeen years he was part of our family. It's difficult to put such love and devotion into words. It's a profoundly deep feeling. Now he is resting, relaxing, hunting and healthy in a place of happiness and love. I believe that with all my heart! Goodbye, my sweetheart. Rest well, and we send you much love...
Our wonderful, soulful boy. We'll always love you sweet kitty.
I wish you all peace and a lovely Sunday.
Posted by Mary at 2/08/2014
February 6, 2014
"The strongest of all warriors are these two -- Patience and Time." -- Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace
I love this quote, and it's true. I want more patience and am working on it. And i need to manage my time better than i do at present. When i was a child in school, i always got excellent marks on the 'uses time wisely' section of my report card. What has happened to me in my older age? :) I can't control the amount of time i have on this planet, obviously.. but i can learn to use the time i have in better, more productive ways. Patience; however, is something i can learn. I'm not without it, but i could certainly use more of it. I just takes work and focus. Must focus.
Rocks.. stones. Patience and time 'personified.' Or something like that. You know what i mean, right? :) I want the two strongest warriors in the world on my side!
Goodnight, and peace to you. Have a fabulous Friday!
Posted by Mary at 2/06/2014
February 2, 2014
"The most valuable thing we can do for the psyche, occasionally, is to let it rest, wander, live in the
changing light of room, not try to be or do anything whatever." --- May Sarton
Peace to all on this Sunday morning, afternoon, or evening, depending on where you happen to be. :)
Imagine the sweet, wonderful scent of lilacs! Have a lovely day...
Posted by Mary at 2/02/2014
January 29, 2014
Winter has made me lazy!
When cold i'm sloth!
Well, today i received the letter. The letter from my MD's office that says it's time for my yearly physical. Ick. If i ignore the letter for too long, say, more than a couple of weeks, i'll get a phone call. Honestly, sometimes i wish my doctor wasn't on the ball. You know, quite so conscientious. Why can't she forget, at least for awhile? I love her, but dang it, she's so good at her job. lol I detest going for my check-up. Yes i know no one likes it. I know i'm a responsible adult, and i have to go. I'll procrastinate it as long as i possibly can then i'll eventually go. And this is the year i'll be 'offered' a GACK! colonoscopy. (I turned fifty last summer.) How long can i postpone it?? I know. It's important that i have one blah blah blah. :)
And.. as it says in my haiku, i need to have much more diligence and discipline in my life. It's wintertime, and it's cold out there. No polar vortex in Oregon, but it's relatively cold, and i've become cold weather-lazy. I did a little better today and went for a longer walk than on previous days, but i need to walk more. The other thing that i dread about the physical.. besides the entire physical.. is the fact that i have to step on... THE SCALE and be weighed. Yes, i will take some cheese with my whine. lol. Really, i'm grateful to be healthy and that i have an excellent doctor whom i like. It's just that i'm a little spleeny.. (Maine speak for wussy, wimpy, babyish,) when it's time to go. So i might just decide to act like a grown up and call tomorrow and make an appointment. Or not?
I enjoy going to my doctor about as much as Snickers likes going to see hers. Exactly.
Goodnight and peace to all...
Posted by Mary at 1/29/2014